Welcoming Audrey Olivia to the World!

The little angel was born today. She's still being a trooper and defying all the odds and "logic" doctors have given her. She is so strong, stubborn, and beautiful...she is ready to live her life, we just hope she's given the chance <3 Trisomy 13, 18, and 21, babies are the strongest beings put on this earth. Doctors need to STOP labeling them incompatible for life! This little girl is proof that these babies are more than capable of living!



Now for an update on myself!


Still shit.hahah
I'm having such a hard time with my eating disorder, and recovery.
I'm not ready for recovery and no one seems to see that. I am not ready to sort out my eating disorder because I don't fully know it myself. The other girls know their eating disorder in and out because they've had it for years and years....I havent had a chance to get to know the ins and outs of it all. I don't want to be 100 lbs I don't want to gain weight....

I have only had coffee today and I was planning on eating one of my meals on my meal plan but right as I was walking into the kitchen my mom looks at me and says " Not to focus on this but you've gained weight huh"....I reply "*grunt*" then she proceeds to tell me how good I look....I feel like a fat fucking whale and she did was make it worse! I feel horrible and disgusting.

I feel like all "Recovery" has done was make me worse.....

but on the good side I got AMBIEN! it seems to keep me asleep for a little bit longer but I am still having the night sweats and waking up fairly early.

Hope you lovely beautiful souls are doing alright <3 I truly do love each and every single one of you. You have been the only ones who have supported me constantly this past year. I have no idea what I would do without you.