92.4 lbs as of this morning.
My goal is to be 80 lbs by wednesday, October 17th, my birthday.
I will accomplish this.
I won't let this weekend fuck me up.
I've got this new monster though.
It completely has controlled my hunger problems.
It yells at me.
It tells me every reason why I should not put that in my mouth.
I wake up though, and this monster seems to consume my entire mind.
The urge to be violent has never been stronger.
I feel stronger in a way.
I feel unusually different.
I'm meeting with a new therapist tomorrow.
I'm nervous.
I don't like how she looks.
She gives me a bad vibe already, but my psychiatrist told me to give it a chance. He wants me seeing someone at least twice a week...
He is pretty oblivious to me not eating, but i'm afraid she'll take note of it.
92lbs is teeny!!! :) Please give this therapist a chance, even for just one session, at least then you can say you tried with them :) We all love you so dearly <3
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the therapist Cle, I hope it goes well. Please take care of yourself love <3
ReplyDeleteAlice xx
Love you so much. I've finally stopped crying for long enough to comment. I love you so so much. Please stay strong for me. I need you.
ReplyDeleteI don't like therapists! The last picture is gorgeous... And I seem to fit all the styles of distorted feeling. Be strong but careful please <3
ReplyDelete(by the way if you have facebook you can add me, Au.drey Sa.lander without the dots)