my appetite's been shot lately.
last time I really checked i was 98lbs one morning
I'm not even trying to not eat.
I cant.
Just the thought of trying to make myself eat while my stomach burns like this makes me sick.
I want to die.
please.
I'm scared because i've been avoiding dr. appointments at all costs but now from how sick i've been it's going to become unavoidable and I don't know what they'll say about my weight....
19 days till I see a psychologist.
I just want her to give me drugs to make me a zombie.
Just make me not feel this anymore.
huni.. *hugs* maybe medicine will help, i know how you feel, i know some people dont agree with prescription drugs for mental health purposes, but for me it really does make a difference... if it helps you then by all means make sure you get the help you need. stay strong and dont despair, things will be ok and you will feel better.. much love xx
ReplyDeleteMedication will help you, but you must find your inner strength, find things that will relax you, keep you calm, like getting a massage, or retail therapy :) Or a pet? Anything to help you, i have heard acupunture helps a lot :) xx
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