sorry just need to write this to fucking anyone because I can't write it anywhere where fucking Landon wont see!
IT'S FUCKING RIDICULOUS HOW MUCH FUCKING SHIT I IGNORE THAT MAKES ME MAD, UPSET, AND SAD JUST SO OUR RELATIONSHIP CAN FUCKING BE OKAY AND WE DON'T FUCKING FIGHT!!! BUT THE SECOND I DO SOMETHING THAT HE DOES ALL FUCKING HELL BREAKS LOSE AND I'M THE BAD GUY.
the other night i put up a picture on instagram where i was wearing a tubetop and he goes ballistic saying he lovees how i put up pictures where i look naked! one the picture didn't even go anywhere past my tattoo so you couldnt even see the top of my shirt you couldnt see any boob NOTHING! and what does he fucking do. he puts a picture up today of his entire stomach up of all his fucking tattoos and shit and has a fucking hashtag of #tease. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME! oh he went to go look for my page on instagram and on his search page was his fucking ex the one that broke up with him 2 weeks before we got together and he's like her damn page keeps popping up for some reason all day and its like you have to search for the damn person yourself for it to save on your search list! he's a fucking liar and he calls me a liar?!!? but of course i just ignored it and just shut the fuck up so we could have a nice fucking night. I'll just fucking kill myself to get back at that fucker. He was the only reason for me being alive. FUCK HIM FUCK IT!
what she said ^^
ReplyDeleteseriously what the fuckin fuck. whats with the double standards.. i hate that he treats you like this darling, i know you may not believe me but you really do deserve better than this. you deserve to not be made to feel like crap, and what is he actually playing at searching his ex. i know its not that big of a deal but if my bf searched any of his exes i would break up with him there and then out of the principle that he screws at you for the slightest thing. You should not put up with it! one day he says hes trying and now hes back to the same old shit, give him an ultimatum babe. you are not alive just for him, believe me, it may feel that way but thats only because of the way he treats you. you dont need that type of negativity in your life, you have so much strength in you for every time you put up with his bullshit, and i know that you can be ok, you can get through this.
do you really love him babe? does he love you?
if so is it worth that love to go through this shit?
some things arent worth it.
believe me.
if someone causes you more pain than happiness then that person is poison, that person is not worth it..
if someone cant treat you right then they dont deserve to be in your life.
he does not deserve you and you my darling deserve better.
there are plenty more fish in the sea, believe me hun.
i am sorry that things are not working out :\ i wish there was something i could do.. i dont want you to feel like i am just man bashing him or telling you to leave him.. i know how it feels to be where you are, my bf did pretty much the same thing - like act all controlling cos of my past.. but i gave him the ultimatums and thigs are running smoothly.. but its not like that for everyone. everyones situation is different, but one thing i know is that no onee deserves to be treated the way hes treating you. maybe he thinks he can get away with it? some guys are like that.. my bf thought he could treat me like that cos i would take it no matter what, but when i gave as good as i got, when i told him that he had to treat me better or i would be gone, that he was ruining my life, that i could cut him out of my life easily he realised that one day i would have enough and he would lose me.. maybe you need to put that fear into him??
i hope you feel better, if you need to talk just comment or drop your email on my blog and i will always be there for you, remember that.
you are an amazing person, you are strong and beautiful and worth ten million landons, its high time he realised this.
And you doll, dont ever forget it.
love you xx
I agree with both of them.
ReplyDeleteHe's a twat, he really truly doesn't deserve you. You could have any guy you wanted, he knows that and he knows that you're too good for him, which is why he's so protective and jealous.
You shouldn't have to keep things to yourself just to avoid arguments.
I hope you're okay.
Stay strong and please take care of yourself.
I hope you're able to keep some food, or at least some water, down now. Love you.
Hey hun, you really deserve so much better than this guy. I would hope that you wouldn't hurt yourself to get back at him because you are worth so much more than that. You dont need him Cle and you are strong enough to be without him. Take care.
ReplyDeleteAlice xx