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I ATE HORRIBLY YESTERDAY!
ugh i swear my days off, and my weekend totally fuck up my eating plans.
Woke up Landon had to go to the dentist and I was going to go to target to go shopping, but he didn't leave his house key so I couldn't leave it unlocked. I had a bunch of tortilla chips, pita chips, 3 pieces of bacon pizza, nerds rope candy, 3 milano cookies, and 2 crusts of landons pizza....what is wrong with me?! this was mostly all in the evening time too :(

Today though has been better. I've had some oats with blueberries and strawberries for breakfast along with green mint tea and for lunch I went grocery shopping and I bought a bunch of stuff and i prepared 3 spears of pineapple, edmame, and cherries for lunch.

I ended up not caring how little money I had in the bank because I figured i'd rather spend more many on food I should be eating this weekend instead of spending less money on food I really do not need in my body.

I bought:
strawberries, cherries, pineapple, grapefruit, apricots, lentils, soups, lettuce, edmame, cucumbers, grapes, raspberries, egg whites, turkey, whole wheat tortillas

I plan on this being the only source of food until monday. I really need to stop eating really really well for 2 days and then the 3rd day I completely fuck it up. I'm still 104 but it's killing me....





There's one thing on my mind thats making me really insane. My cousin, the one who made me touch her when I was younger is now 11 weeks pregnant, and getting married next week....I don't feel right about this. It makes me upset and worried. She doesn't deserve a child.



No one cares anyways.