Tuesday, April 3, 2012

A Week of Hell

Hi Ladies,

So basically I failed more than I ever have....I was admitted to the hospital after my little sister found me passed out on the floor ( feel really bad about her being the one to find me), my mom went through my home/work computer found everything...yet she still hasn't even talked to me about it...psychiatrist told my parents that I NEED counseling, it wont happen though watch...I wish it would have worked

My mom had deleted my blog, all my things on my computer. She didn't delete my account though just the blog which I think is weird...

I don't know what else to talk about...I just don't even have emotion in me. I don't have strength to do anything. I'm so fucked up and I can't fix it.

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  1. This actually breaks my heart. I've been so worried about you. Please don't try again. You're amazing and perfect, you have so much to live for. Please, please try to stay strong. You have so much to live for. I missed you so much, I don't know what I'd do without you. You're beautiful, and absolutely amazing in every way. You've always been there to support and help me, and were so welcoming when I first started blogging. You mean so much to me. I will always be here for you.

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    1. I'm really really sorry I worried you. When I was in the hospital all I wanted to do was hop on a computer and just write down all the crap that happened and now I can't even think. I've missed you too thank you for being so supportive and strong . You really are helping me more than you'll ever know.

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    2. I'm just so glad you're okay. If there's anything at all I can do for you please tell me. I know that's probably not much good since we live in different continents, but I want to help you in any way possible. I'll always be here for you.

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    3. I freaking wished we lived closer! I need someone that I can talk to about my weight and crap "/ The only person I had was Landon and anytime I talked about it, it turned into a fight. I wish I had someone to be excited with me and help me.

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    4. Hey! So glad you're ok! So glad you're back! :)
      By the way, my bf is the only person I can talk to about my weight and he doesn't care AT ALL and really doesn't get it. So I know what you mean.
      Alice xx

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    5. Thank you so much.
      Yeah Landon was the person who told me to do something about my weight since I was always complaining about it and I finally did it and now he gets all pissed off that i'm losing weight. He told me he didn't think I'd follow through with it. And that kinda made me mad like he thinks that I don't have the will power to do it.

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    6. I know, I wish we lived closer together too. It would be amazingly to have someone near me who I can actually talk to, without them judging me. Here's my email address: sarahcoles07@gmail.com email me any time you need anyone to talk to. My emails come through to my phone, so I should get any emails pretty much immediately. I will always be there for you.

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    7. Okay i'll definitely email you next time I need to talk. Anytime you need to talk know that i'm always here for you too.

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