I'm back.
I won't let up on this blog again.
I'm starting the New Year at a wopping 98.4 lbs.
I feel absolutely disgusting.
I've purged my lunch today.
I'm now out of Intesive Outpatient Program, but I've been forced into an Eating Disorder Group. They keep referring myself as the extreme restricter. What makes me "extreme"? I'm losing control of food and I need to get it back.
I feel so bad though. My parents are so worried about me now...My dad is going to be starting a new job soon, a great job, but he has doubts about going because he doesnt want something to happen to me....I want to be skinny and tiny and back down to 87 lbs but he won't leave if I'm like that. I'll never be able to live with myself if I'm the reason why he skipped out on this opportunity.
I owe all you lovely girls a big apology for not being here, or commenting. I promise to do my best and I hope you all are alright <3
98.4 is only a pound more than me! You're doing great honestly :) you'll be able to get it back down! Just do it slowly, it'll stop anybody noticing, and happy new year :) we love you Xx
ReplyDeleteHuni you have no one to apologise to and nothing at all to apologise about I am so glad you are out now, you will get your control back, control is about being able to make your own choices and you have that now <3 I hope you don't be too hard on your self about your dad, its natural for him to worry, I hope things work out doll you are still absolutely teeny tiny! That mirror knows nothing! Love you and so glad you are back and safe xx
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're back, and 98.4 is tiny. Please try to take care of yourself <3
ReplyDeleteAlice xx