I just haven't been feeling anything other than the day going by really slowly.
oh and just complete exhaustion.
I woke up slumped into the car and slept the whole way to work. Worked until lunch time, slept for my hour lunch and now i'm stuck working again trying not to sleep or eat....
This morning I had wheat sourdough toast, and an apple...That's what I've had today since I binged again last night and I couldn't even get myself to hop on this scale this morning because I'm so terrified of what I've done to myself.
Some moments I want to eat, but then remember I can't have bones that way and it doesn't bother but then other days it makes me want to rip out all of my hair.
Ugh I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO, THINK OR FEEL!
fuck me.
You need to slow down :( Get a few good nights sleep! Write down everything you're feeling and thinking, i'm not sure what to suggest because i get like this too :( I just end up sleeping it off and going with what i feel at the time :( xx
ReplyDeleteI'm just so bland. Like everything I fucking feel is just a white piece of paper. & i'm starting to get frustrated which is just making me irritated that nothing is interesting me, i have no morals, no values, no goals, nothing im just literally living each day feeling the days drag on, wishing that it'll just be over already.
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