bleh

my stomach's growling as I type this. I'm not even going to attempt to try to eat. Every damn time i get hungry I get something small to eat and the second that food touches my tongue I have to spit it out. I don't want to swallow. It then is followed by my stomach burning and my hunger is completely gone.....

I'm so in between gaining, and losing weight. I don't know what I want....

I wonder if not being able to eat is the result of my habits I've made. It just became a natural thing for my body.....

13 days....come sooner I just want something to ease this.