I'm just so fucking done with everything.
Once again stuck with no answers from any doctors. It took me 10 months to get a referral for a GI appointment just to be told I DONT have fucking Hepatitis A or B, my pain doesn't have anything to do with this doctors specialty, and my stomach problems are because i'm always nervous and stressed. And after my appointment I was so pissed off, and stressed, that I broke out in hives.
Oh and then last night I had the most fucking excruciating migraine so I asked Landon if I could spend the night when it was time to leave and he gets pissed because he wanted to go for a walk when I left and he wasted 2 hours while I slept just for me to tell him I was spending the night and how he wouldn't feel right just leaving me at his apt while down at the beach. It's like are you fucking kidding me?! It makes me feel like I shouldn't trust him. I feel unwanted. Used. Trash. and then he starts texting me how much he loves me and shit which just makes me feel like he's only saying it because he feels guilty about something. Once this happened I broke out in hives again.....
I'm at work and I really want to just fucking die right now.
Have you got your new doctor yet? Have the referred you to someone who's specialised in what you need? It's ridiculous, they can't keep on doing nothing for you.
ReplyDeleteI hope you're feeling better now and your migraine's gone.
Please never wish you were dead!!