I don't think I ever want to be like this. But I can see how people end up this way. Once you start losing weight, even if it's an unhealthy way it's very addicting. I already have a very addictive personality, I can say I AM ADDICTED TO WEED (even if people say "oh you can't be" You definitely can be.) I was addicted to vicodin, my body at one point was dependent on taking aleve everyday. I have to stay away from a lot of things or else I can fall into a deeper hole than I'm already in. But when you start losing weight, starving yourself you see the scale getting lower and lower and each number that goes down you get stronger and more addicted to losing weight. You start going through the day counting ever single calorie, not eating a thing, filling your body with water. Your every thought is about will this make me fat, are they staring at me? Are they judging me? You're always self concious and no matter what weight you lose you still feel this way. And eventually you end up like the girl in this picture. It's hard to stop. I know I can't.
My highest weight ever was 145 lbs. I remember when i started gaining weight I kept thinking okay when I hit 120 I'll start working on getting thinner. Then it hit 130 eventually and then got all the way to 145 and that's when I decided no this can't happen anymore. I slowly reached 130 and then I couldn't lose weight anymore. I tried diets and then I found the world of Pro Ana and I have to say it's amazing. Right now i'm at 122.8 and it motivates me more and more every day. I really want to be at 100 pounds, even though my boyfriend says it's nasty. And I already know when I hit 100 I probably won't be happy still....
A really good Calorie Count website is :
caloriecount.about.com
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