It is so unfair that there are girls that are just skinny. They look perfect in FUCKING everything. I want that I want to be perfect in every single way. I want to be skinny, funny, nice, smart, have a nice job, nice boobs, nice ass, nice legs. But I don't have any of that.
Yesterday in one of my posts i mentioned that maybe I just don't have a place in society because I was never meant to be here. And I kept thinking about it and it seems more plausable more and more. Everything that i've ever had good in my life was taken away some how. Anything that could have led me somewhere good it was taken away. From the age of 2-about 9 I was an amazing gymnast and my mom decided that I needed to try other sports. So i started loving all different sports and guess what i was diagnosed with sports induced asthma. I had an opportunity to go to a good school of course my cousin fucked that up. I had a lot of friends in middle school and i broke up with a stupid boy going into highschool and they all left me. I thought i had an amzing boyfriend of 3 years and he left me...I just recently had a good job opportunity but i couldnt go to the interview because mymother wouldn't let me quit my job to go to the interview that my job wouldnt give me the day off for.....It's like when will I finally have something good that I can keep??
I feel so alone and ashamed. Looking at thinspo pictures just pisses me off. Only good thing from this anger is i'm too pissed to eat for the rest of the day
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