I'm not doing well at all. My thoughts are all scrambled. The ringing in my ear is getting worse to the point where I can't even concentrate, my eyes get blurry. All I've been thinking about is cutting. I saw a picture of this girls arm yesterday and it was covered in cuts so deep she sewed them herself....I never cut like that I always wanted to but never had the courage....that's probably why I wouldn't be able to kill myself and I hate that....I'm sure if I got bad enough I'd be able to...maybe...
Landon made me eat stupid chicken nuggets yesterday. I only ate a couple though cause he knew I wasn't feeling well. And luckly it didn't affect me cause I lost a whole pound. Now it just needs to keep dropping and dropping until I wither away into nothing. So I can look how I finally feel.
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