So yesterday around lunch time I threw up and I thought it had been spoiled fruit, but today I took my multivitamin I started yesterday and guess what! I threw up again within a couple minutes of taking it. It's like that damn pill dissolved instantly in my stomach because all that came out was a slice of cucumber and one blueberry and just yellow crap, which I'm assuming is the pill. Now I feel like shit and I'm going to feel shitty for the rest of the day... Awesome. I'm kind of looking on the bright side about this though if I binge all I have to do is take one of the multivitamin pills right after and It'll make me puke it all up (: lol
Another great thing! I can now slightly see my ribs when I suck in. It seriously made my day. I'm at 65 calories for the day and I hope to keep it under a 100 today. I have a bad problem, I feel like I completely failed if I go over 100 calories. I did a lot of office cleaning today and walked for 30 minutes of my lunch so I put in a decent amount of exercise today burned off a total of 316 calories. I wish I could just shed all my fat and be bones. I still have a fat roll hanging over my pants when i sit and it makes me so self conscious. Seriously like I can't even be around Landon naked. I hate how my body looks, I look in the mirror and I'm just like what happened?? How did I just let myself go like this? Because of me allowing myself to become Obese I now have ruined my body for the rest of my life. I have nasty stretch marks that aren't going away. I fucking hate myself I can't even eat anymore my body won't allow it, but I don't mind.
Vitamins do that to me too! I had to start slowly with children's vitamins. Now I can handle regular ones as long as I take them with some food. Stay strong!
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ohhh thanks! i called the company and they're reimbursing me for the money i spent so i'll just go get a children's vitamin instead and see how that goes (:
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