Today I realized how far i've dug my whole with not eating...It's gotten to the point where I don't even want to exceed 100 calories a day I feel disgusting! It kills me once I start seeing my calorie intake go from 30, 70, 115, 180. Last night Landon and I got in a fight and it made me binge. I ate saltine crackers, and rice cakes...and then I couldn't sleep till 3 am. He just snapped at me for not responding to his text he sent me while he was in the other room...Like seriously?!? But we got past it pretty fast. He's gotten a lot better about starting stupid worthless fights.
I ran about 2 1/4 miles today and it was hard! My asthma really doesn't want to cooperate with me and it's really starting to piss me off. I barely ate and my mom kept pushing food on me. So I got about 120 calories in me for today. Tomorrow morning we're going to watch the Callback Auditions for 'So You Think You Can Dance' and I'm so excited, but we're going to go to breakfast in the morning and I don't know what I'm going to do....
I also bought a belt today that barely fits on the first notch but i figured this will be a good way to see if i'm losing weight (: I keep checking the scale all day just to see if I lost any weight but after binging it wants to stay where it is. I'll probably post some thinspiration in a bit cause I'm dying my hair (cross your fingers! hopefully it comes out okay) and i'm really bored.
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